Untapped Dancer Story: My Depression

Mikaela Phillips

Brunswick • Ohio

Dance is such a beautiful thing to me, it’s my therapy. It saved me!

Dance saved my life. In eighth grade the depression I had struggled with all my life got unbearable, I began doing things to myself that no one should ever have to endure, I wanted it all to end. I was fortunate that my mom found out that I was sick when she did, if she hadn’t, I probably wouldn’t be here.

I had been dancing since age three but before I never thought of it as something that could help me get through things. One day it just clicked and I realized dance is one of those things that won’t leave me, compared to so many things that do. No matter where I go in life, dance will always be a part of it. I began to recover and was doing really well, when one of my best friends committed suicide. I went into a downward spiral for a few weeks, but soon realized this isn’t what I should be doing and instead I should be honoring him in the best way that I know how. So one of my teachers and I put together a solo dedicated to him. Dance once again, saved me from making a bad situation worse, and instead of wallowing in misery I got his message out to the world through dance. Dance is such a beautiful thing to me, it’s my therapy. It saved me!

Mikaela dances at Once Upon A Dream